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Tuesday was a very rough day for me. I had a doctor’s appointment in a city about an hour away, and my husband went with me this time. (I was so glad that he was with me.) He originally thought he could see a client while I was at the doctor, but that didn’t end up happening.

I knew that it was not going to be a pleasant day. For the last several days that I have checked, my blood sugar has been 243-300 fasting, so I knew that wasn’t good. Also I have had several urinary tract infections in a row. (One was just treated with Cipro in December.) A few weeks ago, I started getting very bad side pains, unlike any pain I’ve ever had with a urinary tract infection. It lasted about a week or so, and then went away. Then unfortunately, it came back. Needless to say with blood sugar that high, and in pain, I was not feeling very well.

As many of you know, there has been a lot of stress in my life continually, for the last three years or so. My step-dad (since I was 7 years old) died almost 3 years ago in May, leaving me as the primary caregiver for my elderly, ill mom. And there were many problems with my teenage daughter before she moved out (after graduating from high school.) Lots of drama. My health has not been good for awhile, and there have been some major life stresses lately also. (Stress is terrible for diabetes, blood pressure, and cholesterol.)

When I went today, the tests showed that my A1C was 10.5, an all-time dangerous high for me. But for the last year, I have been having high A1Cs.  (Not that high though.) I had a lot of glucose spilling into the urine, and I also had a urinary tract infection. (More Cipro, and I’m disgusted and disappointed. Seems like I live on antibiotics lately. My doctor says the high blood sugars make my immune system weakened. That may be true, but I think there’s more to it. Seems like no one should have this many UTIs.)

You’re probably wondering why I’m not already on insulin. (I’ve been on oral diabetes meds for quite a long time–many years.) I fully understand the dangers of high blood sugars. My mom and biological dad were both insulin dependent diabetics. (My bio dad died just a little while before my step-dad.)  I also know what life is like going low unexpectedly, when you’re on insulin, and that frightens me also. We’ve had some very close calls with my mom, and usually when I was with her. I have saved her life several times. She doesn’t get the symptoms of low blood sugar in time to help herself. Then she begins to act confused and almost drunk, and I know she is going low quickly. I have to spring to action immediately. No matter how many times I go through it with her, it is always frightening until I pull her safely out of it. I spend a lot of time alone, so going low is definitely of concern for me. And trying to find the proper dosage, the shot factor, etc. I know I can learn to do it if I have to, but I sure don’t want to. (Indulge my rant, please.)

Anyway, the verdict is, I have one month to show a decent weight loss, to bring the sugars down considerably, and to exercise. I am not terribly overweight, (I wear a size 12-14, but I am short and every pound shows.)  They say that getting the weight off helps all of it–blood pressure, diabetes, cholesterol, etc. Losing weight has not been easy for me in recent years.  (Menopausal lady that I am.) I usually will drop a few pounds in the beginning, and then I get stuck. But my best diet is Sugar Busters, an earlier version of South Beach. Basically it’s protein, low carb, (whole grains only), vegetables, and some fruits. It’s a very healthy diet without white starch–like sugar (my favorite), rice, white potatoes, white bread, etc. (It’s no fun, but neither is the needle.) She (my doctor) wants me to lose 2 pounds a week (pray for me), by the time I come back, in a little over a month. It may sound easy to you, but I just don’t drop weight easily. However, if the needle doesn’t motivate me, I don’t know what will. Trust me–I’m motivated!!! Really, it’s not just the needle, as I know I can get over that. I already have to take my blood sugar several times a day. It’s the weight gain, the hypoglycemia, the domination of your life, etc. that goes with insulin. (I’m sure many of you are probably on it already.) You become a slave to it, and it changes your life forever. I can vouch for that, having taken care of my insulin dependent diabetic mom for quite awhile. But it keeps you alive, and I realize that when the oral meds no longer work, there is no other choice.  Diabetes is a devastating disease that can harm every organ in your body. I hate it!!! (Another rant!!!)

So we will see if I can get my act together, and start getting on my treadmill daily (first thing every day), and exercising to my aerobic workout videos. I went grocery shopping tonight, so I have the right foods in the house now. So…tomorrow’s the first day of the rest of my life, as they say.

But for now, I’ve got the blues…the lowdown-no good-diabetes blues…

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  1. Interesting info, added to favourites

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